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On Friday (Jan 19,2007), I resubmitted my revised menuscript to Nano Letters and it has been accepted for publication on the same day.  :)

Here are my New Year's resolutions

1) Do good things
2) Enjoy my last semester at Cornell
3) Clean dishes right after finishing the meal
4) Don't think too much about stuff
5) Visit Plantation in spring (my last chance)
6) Clean my room when it gets messy
7) Say nice things
8) Get thinner before going back to Thailand in order to get fat again

Time really flies. I feel like I just came to Cornell a few months ago but it has been three and a half years already. I haven't explored Cornell as much as I should have. I spent most of my time studying and doing research which are kinda bad. Hopefully, I will be able to see everything I should see at Cornell before I graduate. Whether to take hardcore classes to prepare for graduate school or to take easy classes and enjoy my life is still a decision I have to make. Anyway, I hope this coming semester is not gonna be as bad as my last semester. I did enjoy a lot of stuff I did last semester but application process kept bugging me. Good thing is I seem to lose some weight. I'm not sure if it's because I was so busy with the grad application that I ate less or I got so fat in Thailand before I came back here. Anyway, thank people who helped me with my app.

I feel fortunate to know people who are very supportive and willing to give me helps throughout my life. First person I want to mention is อ. ขนิษฐา who persuaded me to join a volleyball team . When I first came to wat suthi, I was a not-so-healthy, kinda weak and fat kid. It was just that I was quite tall and born in 1983 which made me suitable for playing volleyball and could play at a younger-age restriction tournament. Even though I wasn't so successful, the training brought me to another world. I became more healthy and thinner (still not so strong though). And it taught me how to call older people "พี่" and call myself "ผม". I used to have problem calling ppl pee' because I somehow got so shy when I said it (I didn't call my own brothers pee'). Then, one day, I was talking to a senior in my team and I didn't know which pronoun I should use to call him and myself. So, I used "กู" for myself and call that senior by his name. He then turned back to me and said "ไอ้เก่ง (my real nickname) มึงใช้กูกับรุ่นพี่หรอมึง" Haha after that I started to call older people "pee' " and myself "pom" without any hesitation (better than getting punched by him haha).

I kinda miss playing voleyball. I miss the feeling of jumping as high and hitting the ball as hard as I could with the timing not so off. Now, not having exercised for so long, I could feel that I jump much lower than I used to. For the training, I had to wake up early and be at the school's gym by 6-6:30 am to do morning practice (Note that there were cute girls going to schools and taking the same bus that early too. So I had some motivation to wake up early). Then, I had evening practice every Tuesday and Thrusday. The practice finished around 10 pm. I then went back home, took a shower, had dinner, and went to bed. Now, I find it weird that I wasn't so exhausted at all. It was a good time for me. (I want to mention other people but got bored writing. So, next time.)

What generates our feeling? Why do we have to feel sad when we are sad? Why can't we feel nothing when we are sad? (Would we call it sad then, if we felt nothing) If sadness weakened our minds, it should have been gone from our neuron systems when we evolve from homo erectus (I at least got some cool words from archaeology class).  So, does that mean sadness strengthens our minds and extend our lifetime?  Does all feelings have their own purposes? Are some of them unnecessary and we don't really need them? Can't we all just be happy all the time?